My thoughts

I am going to just put this out there. Nothing quite prepared me for the emotions, challenges, or joy that comes when having the chance to have a home full of noise and lively, healthy children. I started my other blog over five years ago, in the midst of heartbrokenness and infertility, I found healing and community in my blog community. Such kindred spirits. I thank God everyday for leading me to healing in such a unfamiliar way. I have never been much on computers and still not so great (except for shopping and blogging) but something in my spirit changed when I was able to find others who shared my desire for motherhood, my deep faith in Christ, and my great love for the Catholic Church and her teachings. After much medical intervention, prayers, and blessings our home is now notably filled with all I ever dreamed it would be and I even have the blessing of being home to care for my family. Since the blessing of our little boy, my infertility blog became a Mommy blog. I did not mean to isolate myself so much, but I did want to use my blog as a way to journal my time as a Momma and my little boy's life. Soon after Joseph came into our family, we were blessed to welcome my two cousins into our home to raise as well. While Joseph was 7 months old, we welcomed a 13 and 15 year old. All three boys, so much action :) It has been a rocky road with the older boys, but we now have a 2 year old (will be 3 in six weeks) and a 17 year old (6 feet tall +) in our home. This blog is going to my way to be public again because I am just wanting to receive the kind of support I received 5 years ago. However, the things I struggle with today are very different. Now, I am discerning if homeschooling is the path our family is being asked to take. Is it God's voice I am hearing or my own. When I kneel down to pray, am I listening to God or are my own thoughts running the show?